i'm free

i'm tired and i should be sleeping right now. in fact, i already texted bb that i wanted to sleep but i can't. my eyes wide awake and i feel like wanted to write something here after so long abandoning this blog.

today, another major changes took place. some of you might already know some of you are not. but, it's nothing really important really. hehe. well, today was my last day at work. yes, you read me clear. i already resigned from my current workplace. i know i always be a secured person where i always make sure that i am in my safe/comfort zone when it comes to life. i know if i stay working there, i'll be receiving my monthly income and could save some (err..nothing really..hehe) since it's difficult to find other jobs out there. but, the thought to resigning suddenly came up to me last week and voila, i quit.

i don't know why, but i felt like f*ck up already working there for almost a year now. (wow, can't believe i stay there that long!). i felt overly tired, mentally exhausted, physically used. i really hadn't plan on resigning. it was a very quick decision i made and told you, i've never been that confident in making decision before this. i really really feel this is something that i must do to keep myself alive and happy. and, here i go.

so today, my colleagues had some surprises for me. they bought me a cake which we ate them together at pantry. they even gave me presents of cat's doll, a perfume and of course, a goodbye card. it was a very sad moment but thankfully, i managed to hold back my tears. yes, the moment i left the building, the feeling was varied. i felt sad but yet i felt relief. i felt tired but free. they were all combining into one. but i felt relief the most that i finally freed myself.

yes, i scored a job at other place somehow. but, it's not confirm yet and i shall not give any details of it yet. once it confirm, i'll write it here some other time.